yes.. i've been feeling low. the lowest i have felt in along long time. no time for jokes or petty small talk. im not even in the mood. and this is the longest time dat im feeling upset. coming close to a week already. its hard to laugh when your heart is in shreads and you feel like your face will be crumbling into a frown and tears will soon start falling.
im sensitive that way. but not many people know. in fact how many people actually take the time to know? most would not even bother with the extra chore. im babblering and i do not care. its my blog for goodness sake.
i have been blog-hopping and i read a couple's blog. their individual blog fyi. it seems dat most of the guy's friends do not approve of the girl and keep making nasty remarks about her. how she seems to control his life and blah blah blah. and the guy well.. i cant say that he actually takes a stand and protects his gf. super wat the fuck. really. if you love the person to be wif her. den go find your balls to protect her and take a stand against your friends. unless you are the type who has no backbone and the only reason why you have a gf is becos you need someone to listen to your problems.. and of course you need sumone to make out with..
speaking of which, the gf is no better herself.. she can tel her bf to fuck off.. and mind you.. she does say it oke.. not a role model of a nice person. but that's not the point. anyways. i digress.. i was distraught by wat i read hokay. uber disturbing. they need to see a counsellor. badly.
bad to my oh-not-doing-so-well self.. i tynk im goin bonkers. honestly. i flare up pretty easily and all i want to do. ever. is cry. bawl my eyes out. i'll be okay for a while and i'll do it all over again. this is bad? tell me abt it..
sometimes i fyl like i dont matter in your life any more. friends are impt i know, but you are changing and i tynk its cos of them. i dun want to run your life. but you decide. i dun tynk i can stand being second best AGAIN. they were nvr dere wen you were depressed. they were not by your side worrying abt you wen you were sick. im worn out.
